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i went to em-em-bi-ci today. well, with my momme and dadde. first we went to yamaha to see nylons guitar (my mom promised me to buy me a guitar if i got A rank of 10 and i did it :) and yea, bez im going to malaysia tomorrow so dadde decided to buy me that guitar when i get back home (HE PROMISED ME!). second, we went to disc tarra, awww yeheaa, bought kris allens album.





then off to sports station, TADADADADA, bought new reeboks training short. i actually wanna bought the white one but momme told me to bought black, because the white one will trace to my undee, so bought black.



third, i went back home T__T

ANYWAY, check this rolling stones t-top out







DAAAAMNNN! i lick it a lot bey-ouch

okay, thats it for today, gonna prepare things for tomorrow.
TATA!

fat is beautiful

ohmymy. i have no idea. haha



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But the hottest bitch in heels right here

so i idly idly blog walking to some different types of blogs, and i just realized that many of indonesian blogs that are extremely useful and entertaining. and whoaala check this out crony.



you guys should visit his blog. he's insane :D
and you guys havta put up a dare for him on his blog HERE!!!

the art of love. blaah

okay, so i was making somekind like cat woman's ears and nails for the fashion show,
let the pictures tell you what happened

shawty lets work

well yeah, aku tuh lagi di sekolah. jadi rada buru buru nulisnya. okay, hari ini tuh hari guru, terus ya kita upacara hari ini, buat gantiin senin 2 hari yang lalu gitu. tadi waktu akhir akhir upacara ada beberapa anak yang dipilih buat ngasih bunga ke guru guru, agak terharu sih. terus.... terus... aku udah ga tau mau tulis apa. yaudah deh. CHAO BUDDY.

and you break my heart

Relationships - of all kinds - are like sand held in your hand. Held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers. You may hold onto some of it, but most will be spilled. A relationship is like that. Held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact. But hold too tightly, too possessively, and the relationship slips away and is lost.
-kaleel jamison-

im on again

haya, long time not posting things eh? wait for me. i'll be back crony

someday you'll cry for me like i cried for you

if someone you love hurts you cry a river, build a bridge, and get over it. dont make you look nuts with your stupid tears, get out of 'em. moving on is simple, its what you leave behind that makes it so difficult. my heart was taken by you, broken by you and now is in pieces because of you. i understand with love comes pain, but why did i have to love so much? it's just making me nuts nowadays.

its hard to pretend when you love someone when you dont but it much harder that you dont love someone when you really do. there are times when i cant decide whether to see you or not, i want to see you because i miss you, because everytime i do, the fact that you dont see me. the way that i see you hurts me even more.

im not supposed to care. time will make you forget me, but time will make me will make me love you more than before.

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try to turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself

By hurting you

p.s. : im not crying because you broke me up, its how you treat me, like a trash.

i need heaven!!!

god, i just known there is a heaven in this big world. MAMEN! im so excited.

wiwiwiwiwi :D

see this guys? isnt it so damn kooly? woaoooo, i just cant believe that my class is the one who done this! BRAVO, BRAVA, YO 8A! it doesnt matter if we're not win or what, but the thing is we all are having so muchy muchy fun doing this stuff. GO 8A! i love you guys.

he took me there this afternoon.

to this hidden pond in a little clearing deep in the woods near the reservoir. we decided, we'd call it VALADON POND. now im soaking in the tub, trying to thaw myself out, watching the steam curl into question marks, remembering the feel of the shivery wind rosing my cheeks, the soft scents of pine needle and new snow, the mirror-smooth ice gliding past bneath my skates and the warmth of his gloved hand holding mine :)

im ms. jay, bitch.

im dead till death.

hell yeah, see this. i would like to kill mr. mark if i can. im so damn angry with this score. but actually, im the one who made this. i cant blame mr. mark. but still, between kill myself or kill him. imsofuckedfrustrated.

come on agigators, tell all of 'em to make my room into pieces.

yesterday, maria, kevin ras, ranie and juven were going to my house. first we decided to done our english drama till finished. but you know, ended with some disaster acted.

disaster maria.

disaster juven.

disaster kevin.

disaster ranie.

ended with:

THISSS!!!

jesus. how could i do this?

i have no idea what kind of things i should write n my blog? bingung dah.
saking bingungnya sampe bahasanya gado gado. *sigh* so fuckever. i dont even care.

many projects such as: - indonesian drama
-english drama
-the saint asisi fashion show
-drawing batik

well, i used to be the fashion coordinator. it's driving me nuts lol.
and about the batik. i've already made it, but ms. anas told me to make 2. cock.
i'm a bit stressed fo sure. DAMN. all the project, they gave us last week and we have to finish all that shits this week. i was just like, wtf? its a really short time eh?

KILLLL him. he told my mom everything. fuck.

well, my mom and kevin's mom was going to my school today. my mom just company kevin's mom to talked to ms. heny. while kevin's mom talked to ms. heny. this guy called my mom for talked. and this guy told everything about me to my mom. he told my mom my mark at school was really down than before, i have a boyfriend, i like to day dreaming while teachers are explaining, and so fucking on. *daaaah* and when i was home, drama happened:

mom: do you have a boyfriend? tell me the truth. i wont angry to you.
me : no mom, i swear. just trust your daught.
and hopefully,
mom: okay2, i trust you. it's okay if you have a boyfriend, i'll see, if he good for you or not.
me : well, okay mom. *sigh*
mom: and you know what? he said that you have to sit properly at class. all the boys were watching at your *********.
me : *laughing* well, okay again mommy.
mom: 1 more thing, wear your t-top every day to school. all the boys at your class like to see your *** too.
me : fuck. ooh man. shit. okay mom.
mom: do not say that words.
me : well, okay mom. *sigh*

its all because that guy. KIIILLLL! hopefully my mom trust me. keep trusting me mom. buahaha.

im so not fine. shits were hampering my way.today,

well, the week that i past through was so not okay. my friends were having some shits, and HELLL YEAAAH, me too. my fought with putri was over, but still, we havent talked each other yet. well, nemind. and, and, and. new shit was hampering my way. *sigh* this new shit was rallay hard to be solved. well, well, well. this shit was connected with both guys that really close to me. reallay hard eh?

anyway guys,
today mom was making a pasta, deliciousoooo. and my buddy budds (adelsha, maria, ranie) were coming to my home for english presentation. and we were having our lunchy lunch @ citra. wohooo. much fun with them.the last and, mummy asked me to company her to coffee town. here are some of the photos:

me with my mom's made pasta

cheese blabla toast. i forgot the name. buahahaa.

@ citra

@ citra.

THAT'S ALL FOR TODAY PSYCHOS.

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I guess you better go and get your armor

OKAAY GUYS. LAST TIME MY PROB WAS WITH 1 PPL. NOW? TWO? WOW! BUT I LIKE IT. REALLY. IT WAS DAMN KOOL BABY.

THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I ATTEND THE ENGLISH CLUB? AND? YAAAIKS. IT WAS DISASTER.

ANYWAY,LEMME SHOW YOU SOME PICT.

@ the park

what i do in english club?

english club

best buddies were making something creative@ kolintang class

crazier me

THATS ALL FOR TODAY.
I WANNA GO TO BED. GOODNIGHT PSYCHOS.

AU REVOIR!

HEY COCK. I kill ya, wake ya up, and make you die again.

I SEE SOMETHING REALLY DISGUSTING IN FRONT OF ME THIS LATELY. THIS SHIT IS A GIRL, BUT I THINK, ITS BETTER TO CALL THIS GIRL 'IT' THAN 'SHE'. THIS LATELY, IT'S ALWAYS OVER ACTED IN FRONT OF ME, CYNIC IN FRONT OF ME, TELLING ME A LIE AND SO ON. IS THERE ANY PLASTIC BAG? I WANNA PUKE *PUKING* GIRL, DO NOT SHOW YAR FACE IN FRONT OF ME OR IN 1 SECOND, YOU'LL BE IN HELL.

HELL YEAAA BABY. I WILL KILL YA, BUT I WILL NEVER MAKE YA WAKE UP AGAIN. SO BETTA WATCH OUT SWEETY.

ANYWAY,TODAY IM DOING MY KC PROJECT @ CITRA. IT'S QUITE FUN. WE'RE ALL DONE @ 4.30, I THINK SO. AND ME, ANDRE, AND SACHII WERE TALKING IN MY HOUSE AROUND UNTIL 6.30. WE WERE LAUGHING A LOT THIS DAY. THEY MAKING SOME JOKES. BUAHAHAHAAAA.


TOMORROW GONNA ATTEND THE ENGLISH CLUB. I HOPE IT'LL BE SO MUCH FUN NOT FUCK.

AND. AND. AND. 1 MORE.
SEE THIS. HOW ABOUT IF WE'RE WEARING HIGH WAIST TO SCHOOL. I THOUGHT IT'LL BE KOOL.

THATS ALL FOR TODAY PSYCHOS,

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babe, rezel never tells a lie.

jst like amelia said, "The feeling You have when you saw your crush at school. OH MAAAN, my heart would pump really fucking fast", "It's funny how I wanted to look kool infront of him but I feel damn nervous and shy at the same time", "Dreaming about you and him/her like each other n then go out together aaaaand so on", "listen to love songs which lyrics match my feelings to my crush" !!!
i've felt the same one with amelia. really real the same. but the thing is, i always like, uhhhm.... like i wanna go out from this thing, but i CANT! and how stupid i am? i aint get this boy. why should i still like this person? and the more nd more i like him, the more broken i am. WHAT SHOULD I DO? I JUST CANT STAND! I WANNA RUN FROM THIS HELL!

im not happy with my shity speech

im not happy with my speech at all. its so terrible. gees,its hurting me so bad nd im really dissapointed. *sigh* whatev, i cant fix it anymore. btw, today me, rudy, kevin ras nd adelsha were going to megamall. @ rudy's car :

th driver : rudy

adelsha

kevin ras

@ j.co :

we all
♥ green tea for sure :)

busy with his cellphone :(

me nd adelsha

@ pizza hut :

we all were so full. but so what?! we went back home @ 4 pm.
nd walaaah, i bought new clip with skull in it (i didnt have th photo, sorry ), new eyelash curler :)

thats all for today,
AU REVOIR !